Spending alot of time in my head today. Our son, a week ago, gave us quite a terrible scare. He had severe chest pain. The kind of pain that causes you to hyperventilate, the kind of pain that makes you stare as if you are a deer in headlights, the kind of pain that makes you tremble. This is my child that never complains or ever registers pain. The pain was a 10. And he said he had been having these pains for a year and we didn't know it. He was scared, we were scared. We took him by ambulance to the ER and they found nothing. Told us that this was muscular pain.
Over the years, I have come to trust my gut instinct. And this time my gut was saying that the fact that he is a "physcially fit 18 year old male" (as was repeated a few times to us that night) - did not mean anything in this case. This kind of pain was real. If it wasn't heart then it was something - I cannot find it - but someone can.
So, I have prayed for a week that I was being an overprotective mom and that I was calling a cardiologist for no reason. And today we met with Dr. James Neel a Cardiologist at Galichia. He was kind and not dismissive. He ordered a 30 day heart monitor, blood work and an EKG all to be done before we left today. Then JT was going to get a nuclear stress test scheduled once he consulted his class work. OK, I could breathe - we had a plan. Good. We left and went to lunch.
Then shortly after lunch, the dreaded call came. Kim - this is Carla at Dr. Neel's, calling to let you know that the EKG came back abnormal. I remember asking what that meant. And of course, she said that it could be several things then stated that it meant more testing had to be done. And soon. So, this afternoon we headed back for a CAT scan with CTA. It is a cat scan with dye that is used to look at all arteries and chambers. If there is something abnormal, this is better than the nuclear stress test. So, now we are waiting again, 7-10 days for the results. My guess is that if it is bad we will know sooner than later.
So, trying once again to take each moment as it comes and to not worry past this minute. Word of advice, ALWAYS, ALWAYS trust your gut instinct. Only you know your family like you do. Pain happens for a reason, sometimes it makes no sense but always follow through. I am still praying that we find nothing, but my breath was taken away for a split second when I heard the words abnormal EKG. We will get through this and I am ever so thankful for insurance and the freedom to choose our Dr.!
If God leads you to it, then God will lead you through it. I must keep that in the forefront of my mind.
